This post is going to be comprised of quite a few firsts for me.
I have tried to avoid anything too deep or personal on my blog
for a number of reasons.
Yes, I, like many people, am worried about the judgment that may come from sharing my personal thoughts and feelings on my blog but I finally decided that it’s MY blog for a reason and if I want to discuss something.. I should feel comfortable doing so.
So to those of you who are here to read what I have to say and find pleasure in the insights of others, thank you.
I love sharing the inner workings of my brain with people like you.
And for those of you here to tell me I’m wasting my time and that no one cares about what I have to say, thank you. You are only upping my view count 😉
So here we go…
I’m stepping outside of my comfort zone in this blog post to tell you about the ways I have stepped outside of my comfort zone in 2018.
This year is off to a great start and I am excited to share it all with you.
For starters, 2017 was hands down the worst year of my life.
It was full of my lowest lows and deepest sadness…
Someone really close to me enjoys writing poetry and wrote this about me:
“She smiles, she laughs, she sings…
but she also cries, sobs, and sleeps.
Her smiles are rays of sun
but only because it’s her way
of screaming for help without making noise.“
Reading that was definitely a reality check.
I had let hardships in my life start to affect the person I knew I was at my core and I hated it. I knew I needed to start looking at the areas of my life causing me pain in a different way and learn from them rather than letting them hurt me.
In the end, they taught me so much about myself and I can honestly say that I am beyond proud of the person who came out the other side.
If you know me at all, you know that I have the HARDEST time opening up to people.
(I guess that’s why it has taken me so long
to even post something this personal on my blog.)
I have never been out on a date with someone who I had not previously spent PLENTY of time around as either friends or in a group of people.
Yes, I was in a relationship with a guy for two years
who I never even technically went on a first date with.
I KNOW, CRAZY.
Sooooo, when a week into 2018 a *super* cute guy I had never actually spent time with asked me out on a date, I PANICKED.
Let me tell you, I can put on quite the show and play it off incredibly well…
but on the inside, I was dying.
I suppose he may disagree
buuut…hey, I thought I was as cool as a cucumber.
Everyone always assumes that I am super comfortable in front of other people all the time which, for the most part, is true but there was something about this guy.
He got the best of my nerves and I’m still in disbelief.
I took a GIANT leap outside of my comfort zone and you know what?
It was amazing.
I had such a great time and was genuinely happy.
That’s what life is all about, right?
So I will definitely count that as a win.
*Side Note: For those of you who may be wondering, “cute guy” and I have yet to go on a second date but never say never. Ha!
Breaking out of my comfort zone part 1? Success.
Paige and I took a trip to Iceland!
You can read all about the details HERE
but I’ll fill you in on why it was a step outside my comfort zone.
My only trips outside of the country have been to Mexico, Canada and Costa Rica.
If you know anything at all about those three countries, I speak the predominant language in each so I felt at ease.
In Iceland, that was a whole other story.
While most people there did speak English, getting around was TOUGH.
Sometimes questions were lost in translation and the public buses? Don’t even get me started on those. It was so confusing because none of the words made any sense…
but we figured it out!
We made a couple of mistakes along the way but it was all worth it.
10/10 would go back to Iceland.
I am teaching a SPANISH class on Tuesdays and Thursdays.
You read that right: Spanish.
While I have become confident in my abilities and trust that I can at least teach others the bare minimum.. it is still very nerve-racking to stand in front of a group of people and teach a language that you are not fluent in.
I give myself a pat on the back every single day after class.
Part 4 is still in the works.
Most of you may not know but I am actually in the process of applying to law school.
I know, a rather last-minute decision especially considering I got a degree in biology.
With that in mind AND the fact that I will be moving out of my house and living on my own in a matter of months, I’m going to count that as breaking out of my comfort zone too. I will be sure to keep you posted on how it goes.
With all of that being said,
I have to tell you that doing things that make you uncomfortable are the BEST.
I recently started watching the channel “Yes Theory” on YouTube and I am completely inspired by their desire to do things that make them uneasy. Their motto is “Seek Discomfort” and I’ve decided to adopt that saying to help push me in a direction that is helping me grow.
So do something that scares you!
It’s a rush and takes a lot of convincing…
but the sense of accomplishment you feel once it is all over is UNREAL.
Give it a shot and let me know how it goes for you.
I can’t wait to let you all know what I get up to next.
Yet another side note: do you guys like these posts that are more conversational than fashion/photo oriented? I know I didn’t include any photos in this post so I’m wondering if that makes it less entertaining. Feel free to send some feedback my way!
“To live greatly, we must develop the capacity to face trouble with courage, disappointment with cheerfulness, and triumph with humility.“
Thomas S. Monson