Here’s to 2019

I have asked myself this question so many times over the past few months:

Why did I stop blogging?
I was so frustrated with my life for the past few months because I could not, for the life of me, find things that made me happy.
And then it dawned on me:
I gave up a HUGE source of my happiness for absolutely no reason.
The worst part? I have no idea why!
So I’m back.
I’m back because writing and sharing my thoughts makes me happy
and if I get to share that with people who enjoy listening,
even better.
Sooo… let’s catch up!
I’M IN LAW SCHOOL.
I know, I know.
If you follow me on any social platform, you’ve heard this news. A LOT.
But I am so happy.
I spent a lot of time wondering if I would ever be able to make it here
so I am over the moon to be able to say this is a goal
that I finally accomplished.
The University of Utah is BEAUTIFUL.
Downtown Salt Lake is so much fun.
I am loving it all and can’t wait to keep exploring for the next few years.
FINALLY WHOLE.
Remember in February I said that 2017 was the worst year of my life?
Can I also include the first half of 2018?
No judgment.
Falling out of love is way harder than falling in it.
What’s interesting about falling out of love though
is it happens the same way you fall into love:
slowly at first and then all at once.
I didn’t think I would ever be able to get through the heartbreak I was experiencing
but then things changed drastically…
and falling out of love became really easy.
When you’re trying to get over someone,
your brain has a tendency to focus on all of the good which is why it hurts so bad.
But when that person shows you that all of the “good” you saw simply isn’t there anymore, it becomes a whole lot easier.
Essentially: the person you fell in love with no longer exists
so there’s no one there for you to be in love with anymore.
And that, my friends, is what we call sweet, sweet freedom.
I am a beautiful, intelligent, comfortable, happy, WHOLE Hayley.
Boy oh boy, does it feel good to say it and finally mean it.
Woo!
So that’s why the first half of this year sucked.
But something about this new city and new experience has me loving life and so eager to leave that version of me and my life behind
and embrace everything I have in this very moment.
BIG NEWS:
I’m writing a poetry book that I’m going to independently publish in a few months!
Super basic. Super cheesy.
But I love to write and love the idea of being able to hold a tangible collection of my writing. Not to mention the fact that I’d love to share it with you all too.
BIG NEWS PT. 2:
I’m going to be starting a podcast with one of my new friends from law school!
While this may not appeal to the masses,
we will be talking about cool/crazy cases we read, relevant news, and hopefully getting around to interviewing fellow classmates and professors.
You’d be surprised at how many cool stories you can get from professors who spent years in the game before deciding to teach!
Definitely stay tuned for that.
Even if you aren’t a law student, you might enjoy a good joke and crazy story time every now and then 😉
Talk about a life update, am I right?
Law student
Finally emotionally available (LOL)
Poet (LOL x2)
Podcaster (LOL x3)
I have a few more tricks up my sleeve
but those will be coming soon 😉
Thank you so much for sticking around, even during my long, unexplained breaks.
I love you all so much for taking the time to read what I write
and can’t wait to share more.
xoxo,
Hayley
“it was so easy to fall in love with you
but so hard to fall in love with myself.
i guess that’s why they say the best things in life don’t come easy.”
{i am head-over-heels in love with me}

-h.e.

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